Clouds 2 - November 15, 2007

Today I found out that I didn’t get a contract job that I interviewed for earlier in the week. The fact is, I was anything but excited about the job. Of course I’m anything but excited about any job right now, but this one was particularly depressing. The only two good things I have to say about it are: it was good money, and the commute was very manageable.

And yet I’m really bummed I didn’t get it. Why is that?

It’s the uncertainty. With two babies on the way, I just can’t relax until I know where my next paycheck is coming from.

I’ve gotten back into looking at other photoblogs, and that has been inspiring. It has made me think more about my own photography. But I just can’t seem to drop things and get out and do photos. In that time when I thought I’d be getting the contract, I found myself relaxing. With that relaxation came an ability to think more clearly (about something other than getting a job). Maybe doing more photography. But now, I have this nagging nervousness that prevents me from doing anything worthwhile.

This sucks.


Great! I love the light and the open windows very much.

Posted by: Lucca's on November 19, 2007 06:26 PM